History Ends

when feelings and emotional breakdown…what do you get?
answer: a confused kid loitering around

*your beautiful smiles is the cure of my sorrows. your glittering eyes stares directly into my heart and makes me melt right away*

yes i’m a confused kid loitering in the big forest all alone.
i’m surrounded by the color brown n green
sometimes i wonder if you will walk into this forest and find the way out with me
i want you to walk with me but i’m afraid

i’m afraid to lose you once again
i’m afraid of repeating the same old history
i’m afraid of going through the same old pain

i had your name tattooed in my heart
but how do i show it to you?
part of me desperate for your call but yet
another part of me refuse to be label as desperado

i don’t give a damn about who is pulling me down
but i give a big damn about how you felt about me
i wish i could be one saving you from drowning
not the one you use as life jacket

i might not be the best thing ever happen in your life
but what i have for you is the best thing ever happen in my life

the bravest thing i ever did in my life
was to tell you that i love you
but it that all?
i love you is just the word
i’ve got a price to pay…
how much?
i don’t know but i want to know it so badly that it makes me hurt

i think i’m not good enough for you
but i don’t care because all i ever wanted is not you alone
all i ever wanted is to see you happy and smile
can i be the one who makes u happy and smile?
give me your cue so i could a make bigger move
without your cue, i’m so timid and scare
scare that i will lose both love and friendship of yours

even if you don’t response to this love of mine,
i don’t mind getting hurt because of you
but seeing you happy with someone else
cleanses the pool of blood in my heart
i’m left with a broken scar but happy heart
because i want you to have the best of everything in life

i will be there as long as i can
this is not a promise i can tell you
but i will be there as long as i can

i wish i could to go through all that with you
not because i’ve been waiting for your presence
but it’s all in the name of LOVE…

this is me
i will present myself to you
i will build my own brigde
take a look when you’re ready
ready as in u’re totally over with everything
walk on my bridge with a new heart,
without any blood from the previous scars
so are you ready?

After reading back this old post of my, i feel like so fUP.. never mind, maybe we are not mean to be together. I shall just slit my wrist and eat my heart! wtf? sound so wrong .. anyway, just to inform you guys that emo and breakup season is just around the corner. BEWARE~